I haven’t been sure what to think about my rose program from Nationals but here it is:
I ended up feeling better about my rose program performance at Sectionals than this one. Yet I heard good things about it from other skaters, and I loved that they made the effort to give me feedback. One skater recognized that the music was Patrick O’Hearn and asked me the name of the piece. Others told me they experienced the program as beautiful, heartfelt, or touching.
With my skate being first after the warmup, I was not able to relax as much as I wanted and I feel my skate had somewhat of a rushed, stressed-looking quality. I had worked on my speed in the six weeks between Sectionals and Nationals. I’m not sure that skating faster ended up being a net positive what with the loss of some details that I’d wanted to put in and the increased sloppiness.
I’m not sorry that I put in the effort on this program. Ty helped me a lot on my posture and choreography. I hope to keep improving my posture, I notice that in this skate it is sort of crunched at the neck. I need to engage those neck muscles.
Men and women were combined in our competition group, and I placed fifth. The first place winner was a man. I don’t feel I completely understand what the judges are looking for, and I need to figure out how much I care about what they’re looking for versus what I just want to skate.
I was sad after my skate to be finished with that program because it’s dedicated to my dad and keeps him in my mind in a good way. That may just mean that I will have to skate this program again in the future.
I have to resolve my attitude toward the judging. When I watch skating, my favorite skates are not always the ones that are ranked most highly. Then why do I compete, and why do I care how I’m ranked? The judging does mean something to me, I do care how it turns out. It is hard especially to be ranked at the bottom. But when I watched the silver skaters in my age group some of the skates I enjoyed the most were ranked in the middle or near the bottom.
It’s something I will continue to think about. I have worked hard on some skills solely because they are important to ranking highly in competition. And yet what I really want most of of my skate is that I ‘look like a skater.’ I want to be able to perform, to look graceful, to have a program that flows and hangs together as an artistic whole.